Set it off!

This day, filled with messages that give intentions to disappointment because of someone else’s incompetence, will now turn into an aspirant as the year’s most enjoyable party now when my favorite bar Oliver Twist aka OT turns 25 years old and friends, brewers and legends from U.S.A. & Europe will be pushed in front of me by the turntables for three days and nights!

#OT25 on instagrm


Everlasting fires

Yesterday afternoon I hurried out from the office and nearly ran through the streets over the heart of the city via old town to the south central. I were in a state of shock and panic and headed from bar to bar had pint after pint trying to realize what the hell was going on. Eventually, I took a deep breath and walked home to catch some sleep.

For yesterday I had an original plan just to go home, relax and play some excellent vinyl. Chilling and warm up for tonight’s concert by Metallica at the Stockholm Globe Arena aka the golf ball. Then again I got proven how fast your life can change.

Just before leaving the office my doctor called me. I had over a year of investigations for esophageal complications. Been suffering from them since my trauma with Boerhaave Syndrome the summer of 2005. He told me that I most likely suffer from Achalasia, it is not dangerous according to him, just a few x-ray sessions and a slight surgery and possible injections of muscle-relaxing medicines.

Then you should know that I now at the same time suffers from a fracture in my shoulder that does not heal as expected so I might need a surgery for that one, too.

So, after having years of complications with learning to live with new handicaps, (learn to swallow food and fluid with a synthetic windpipe, learning to walk and talk again after being beaten to death by a manic junkie and living life with absolutely zero olfactories, the hardest of them all being a sommelier, have to start over and learn me the senses of taste and all that comes with it) I have to go through another diagnosis with everything included. I have to go to all appointments with the doctors, do x-rays, do surgery and then get well and go back to life and hope that the shit helped out one more time.

The same with the bloody shoulder.

Sometimes I just go and wonder if it is just would be easier to stay in pain and continue to suffer. Like now, that is what I do, I can hardly sleep due to the pain in the shoulder but I am still at the office each morning doing my missions. I have always been like that, a warrior fighting for my right to enjoy life.

Waking up today I just had all that panic, shock and fear thrown away. I do have a very exciting time of my life coming up starting with Metallica tonight followed by a great party week as my favorite bar in Stockholm along Akkurat and Nya Carnegiebryggeriet, Oliver Twist turns 25. There will come brewers, beer legends and fanatics from all over the world and I will see faces I am missing hardly at this great celebration AND I will do some DJ-sets, not playing metal music, just great music. Then there will be a few days reigning with super great shows from absolutely top artists in my world such as Under the Church, Lik, Johnny Marr, Jex Thot, Wolfbrigade, Sleep & eventually Iron Maiden finishing off the spring and getting us ready for the summer.

The summer might be long, as awaiting my bloody surgeries and medical investigations I can not book anything up at all. I´ve claimed holidays in August but might just have to stay home and then I can bloody work, if not I do have trips to England and Italy on my mind, if not I save up money and go for a trip to the west coast of the United States of America to taste beer and wine in the fall. Who knows.

So, my point is: despite you go through rough times, loneliness & medical disorders, look at all the good quality you still have in your life and take care of it, enjoy it, live it. I´ve met children in the townships of South Africa being brought into the civilized worlds completely rock bottom having hopes and dreams of life. It is ok to feel sorry for a night because you have to go down in your deep self and cry out the knowledge of yet another defeat in life, feel it, take the pain out of it to vanquish the tough times. Whether it is medical complications, just harsh times or your lover dumped you stay with your hopes and dreams and do not let the shit in life drag you down.

I hope to see some unexpected faces down Oliver Twist this week.


Stockholm Slaughter

The festivities are over for this year and the promotors should be raised as gods from now on.

Such effort and dedication to make this happen despite criminal resistance from the extreme and far left, that all of a sudden attacks metal bands and their members on a Global basis. In some of the cases it is because built up and trolled lies. Why their resistance will never be trust worthy to me in person as long as they are holding on to such bullshit.

Great three sessions with DOOL, Fides Inversa and One Tail, One Head being the best bands in my opinion.

I hope this fest will survive. Otherwise it would be a victory for the evil forces of the opposition.

I met people from all over the world, with all skin types and sexual habits. You can call us what you want but there is no way that we are any sort of fascists. The censorship hordes and Siewert Öholm supporters can creep back into the caves where you probably came from.

I belong to a lively, generous, welcoming, equal and creative scene of metal. So did this festival.

Total Destruction

It is my all time favourite song by Bathory from their second album #”The return……” and it is also a slogan of the musical destruction I stayed close upon since 1985.

So I am more than frantic about this weekend as we will see a great festival named Stockholm Slaughter – the Second Coming… open its doors for the second year. Highlights on the forecast in my world say: Swallow the Sun, Count Raven, Masters Hammer, Entombed A.D., Sinister, Tsjuder, One Tail, One Head and the supreme dutch wonders DOOL.


So looking forward to this weekend into a hall of extermination.


I do hope to see you there…


I am really excited to watch the film “Scream for me Sarajevo” with Bruce Dickinson tonight.

Due to lack of friends because of Roadburn (yes, my homies still go there despite they can never go back to 2011 & pre-years standards, I´ve been last few years as well and it is still good despite being far from the glory days) it looks like I do have to watch the film all by myself.

I´ll bet NO ONE will text my phone and ask for that spare ticket as most of the suspected guests that could go along with me will not be in this city tonight.

Who gives a F by the end of the day…

Other good news is that Uncle Acid & the deadbeats released tickets for their up and coming European tour today.